As we "Forgive and Live".

A powerful lesson was learned in my life as I learned that forgiveness was not a choice but an obedience to God.

A situation had occurred and I got caught in a place where  I couldn't  find forgiveness in my heart  for some friends that had caused me great hurt and pain.
 How could they do these things and  behave this way I thought to myself praying and searching for answers. .  Others found out about it and they too couldn't help asking me wanting to know the truth.  Being caring friends they wanted to hear all the details so of coarse  I obliged them by telling as much as I could while trying to still trying to stay in the general realm of good christian etiquette.  I was suffering and was glad to get the chance to tell everyone what I had been through.  I was the one with the white hat "or should I say the shiny halo" Everyone respected me and when they heard from the grapevine that  I was done wrong they wanted to know what happened.  Deep down I truly was deeply angered and wanted these phoney christian s found out.  I had  I convinced myself I was doing right.  Didn't others deserve to know the truth and be warned.   Why would the Lord  have allowed me to walk through this if it wasn't for the purpose to blow the whistle and sound the alarm so that others could be protected.

Our Father who art in heaven hallowed be thy name.
Give us our day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses. "As we forgive those"  "who trespass against us".

These are the words of the Lords prayer.  Too many may not think very seriously about this prayer and feel in a casual way Oh  "I always forgive others"  but in truth are deep down still holding anger or a grudge against whoever it was who did them wrong.  The test is do you still talk about it in a angry bitter or hurt way?  Or can you talk about it as a time of challenge that God has helped you to learn through.

In my case I made all the wrong mistakes.  Instead of praying for the situation and the ones who did me wrong.  I built  up a case against them to make me the "Right one"  "the Good one"
God sadly saw me spinning my own web of deception through talking to others about it in a bad light.  He couldn't help me by defending or mending the problem because of my attitude of hostility and unforgivness toward them.

I should have "forgiven"  and  "prayed" for them and asking the Lord to amend and have mercy over all of us concerned.

 During this hard season of my life I found myself suffering deep within with unusual guilt feelings, darkness, insecurity and a loss of the precious peace I once enjoyed.  In other words the Lord had to lift His holy presence off of me till I could no longer stand the pain of living without his peace within.  The enemy of our soul (the devil)  had taken every liberty to antagonize and harass me so ruthlessly till  one day I could take it no longer and while in prayer I began begging for the Holy Spirit to help me by showing me the error of my ways.  He in all His mercy and love was waiting for this moment  so He finally could reveal that  I still had unforgiveness in my heart against these people.  Because of this I had left open a doorway for the destroyer to have his way.  The  kind of  "sifting" as Jesus warned His disciples of had become real to me. This lack of repentance and unforgiving heart can even bring on sickness and disease within our body if allowed to go on throughout life.

 After truly "repenting and forgiving",  those that hurt me, I began pleading the blood of Jesus over my life and prayed for restoration of my body soul and spirit.  I even wrote a letter letting them know I truly loved them with Gods love " agape love"  A letter isn't always necessary but the Lord led me personally in this way.  After being obedient to the Lords leading's, a release of something so heavy and dark began separating itself from my heart and life.  I miraculously began feeling the brightness of my spiritual life and health finally coming back once again. 

It has been many years and as I go along in life I still recall the sharp way the Lord had to deal with me about  forgiveness. Jesus took all of our sins at the cross!  He died for all our ugly sins!  That we could be in "Right standing" with our precious Lord God.  Do we deserve this?  No we don't!  But because of what Jesus was sent to this earth to do for us, we can enter into "not eternal death and suffering in the pits of "hell" because of our sins,  But an eternity of love, healing, pure glory beyond what our hearts and minds will ever conceive of while here in our short pilgrimage on this earth.

My Beloved friends "Forgiveness" needs to be taken seriously. Many of us may even become sick with disease because of it.  If we don't forgive as the Lord asks. No matter what another has done when we finally give it over to  "God"  " He can preform the miraculous"  It is only through our beloved Jesus that we can live in the "light and love of God" and be spiritually and physically healed on earth as it is in heaven. 

God Bless You,    As you make the decision to  "Forgive and Live"

Mathew 6:9
Pray The Lords Prayer often, letting the Holy Spirit gently lead and also guide you into repentance when needed, as you do this  "Gods peace and love" will cleanse your heart and life.

The Lords Prayer;
Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name.  Thy kingdom come thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.  Give us this day our daily bread and

"forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us"

 and lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil for thine is the Kingdom the Power and the Glory for ever and ever ....Amen.